Caroline Flack has revealed ever since she won Strictly Come Dancing and began her rise through the ranks of the industry in 2014 shes been battling depression.
The star said her mental health hit a low point after her X Factor hosting gig alongside Olly Murs was the butt of jokes, however it all started to spiral the year earlier – specifically the day after she took out the Strictly trophy and woke up feeling like somebody had covered her body in clingfilm.
I couldnt get up and just couldnt pick myself up at all that next year. I felt ridiculous, being so sad when Id just won the biggest show on telly and had such an amazing job, the 39-year-old told The Sun.
Adding fame didnt make her happy she explained anti-depressants also quelled her sparkling mood, making it hard for her to get up in the morning when her career was at all-time high.
But it was Graham Nortons joke at the 2016 Baftas that hit her hardest, as he said there was more chance of Anne Boleyn returning to Wolf Hall than Caroline returning to host X Factor.
She said: I remember the person next to me touching my arm in sympathy and just trying not to cry. I went home pretty much straight after. It was really horrible and my lowest point.
The presenter, who recently split again with on/off fiancé Andrew, explained anti-depressants helped her get out of bed, but they stopped her from being happy while they also did their job at stopping her being sad.
After six months she decided to stop taking them, however the withdrawals for her were horrendous and eventually forced her to go on a juice retreat in the Mediterranean to wean herself off the medication.
Now, keen to dispel the stigma around taking anti-depressants, she also set the record straight on her love-life with Andrew – something she said is off right now as they look after themselves.
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But if you think shes a victim, she wants you to know shes winning.
She said: We have a very passionate, raw love but at the minute we just need to look after ourselves. We need to be happy in ourselves before we can be together, I think — and thats what were doing. I think we want the best for each other.