Danniella Westbrook has tweeted about relapsing back while on her Spanish holiday.
The 44-year-old has spent the last few weeks in Spain where she has been spotted sunning herself on the beach and enjoying frolics in the sea.
But shes since revealed it wasnt all fun in the sun, and after arriving home, the former EastEnders star has taken to Twitter to reveal she has made a mistake and alluded to having slipped back into old ways after learning bad news, however, has vowed not to give in to her addiction.
In her post she spoke of hating herself, and revealed her battle has been filled with struggle and hardship.
She wrote: Human beings make mistakes.i have a tendency being an addict 2run back 2 what I know in times of struggle&hardship. Its insane but its addiction. I hate it & I hate myself after but tbh its a illness that twists ur soul. But its 1 I battle and wont let get the better of me.
Human beings make mistakes.i have a tendency being an addict 2run back 2 what I know in times of struggle&hardship. Its insane but its addiction. I hate it & I hate myself after but tbh its a illness that twists ur soul. But its 1 I battle and wont let get the better of me
— Danniella Westbrook (@westbrookdanni) August 30, 2018
Fans began flooding her post with support, with one telling her to stay strong.
In response she revealed her relapse had come about after receiving some bad news: Always x I have had bad news of late about my health and i did what I always do and buried my head for a few weeks in Spain.. made some bad choices because the news has rocked me .. x
As another offered their support, detailing their own struggles and fighting one day at a time, Danniella explained that shes now learned to talk and reach out as a way of coping.
I do the same x stay in the house for days or weeks at a time x but I now pick up the phone and call friends or Sponser I reach out x and the fact youve tweeted me shows you also have reached out Im proud of you for that x stay strong & contact your support network today x, she wrote.
Speaking previously about her addiction, Danniella revealed that in the past, when hitting rock bottom, she got to the point of writing suicide notes to her children.
Youre waiting for the headline, our kids, parents are sitting there picking up the paper and [waiting for the headline] “shes dead”, she said on Loose Women. My lowest point has been the last four years, not having my daughter in my life.
I havent dealt with it in the right way, all Ive done is use, she continued. I put myself into hospital two years ago, I said to them “I have taken copious amounts of coke, every medicine in the house, drunk alcohol; this, that and the other. And I am still waking up – why? Please section me, I am trying to kill myself.
And they sectioned me. I wanted to die. And I thought what could be the thing that could kill me fast enough that wont give my kids a lot of shame? And it will be an overdose and it will be because everyone will say “I told you so because she was a coke head.” And my kids know that. I wrote letters to my kids; Ive got suicide notes from back then and the reason I said is “so you can have a better life”.
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